We Need to Have A Chat...

As you can see from the title, we need to have a little one on one. 

If you're in my reader group, you'll already know what this post is about. If you're not, please read on because I have an announcement. 

I guess the best way to do this is to just come out and say it. 

I'm taking a break from publishing. 

I know. It sucks because when I started this journey, I never, ever, thought I would writing a post like this. However the time has come and there isn't a way around it. Trust me. I've been going around in my head nonstop to figure out a way to not do this. Now I don't want you to think I'm leaving the Indie world, because I'm not, I'm just taking a bit of a break for a while. Preferably when LIFE stops kicking me in the ass. So there is a reason why I've decided to take a break, and in my defense it's a legit reason. Or reasons. 

The first being is come December (or sometime around there) I won't have a job anymore. Yeah, I work, and that part-time job pays for my publishing fees. Trust me guys, it's not as easy as writing a book and then hitting publish. Money and a lot of it is needed, and since I won't have a means to pay for any of my book stuff, I have to step back. I hate the job I'm currently at is shutting down, and I hate I won't be doing part of what I love. But it's just life, and most of the time, life is not pretty or fair. 

The second reason being is since around May of 2017 (basically since I finished my last book, Caden) I have been in such a writer's block.  Believe me when I say I've tried so hard to get out of this stupid block. So much so, I've gotten to the point where I'm so stressed out, and it's starting to affect me on a persona level. As in, I don't want to do anything to do with books, relationships, or most days I don't even want to go to work. It's depressing, guys. Writing has always been my means of an escape. It's the one thing that I depended on to get myself out of my own head because sometimes it's not lovely being stuck with thoughts running rapid. But because of my block, I haven't been able to find my escape. I'm so utterly and completely over this stupid block, but I don't know what to do to get out of it. 

I hate that I'm even writing this post right now. It literally makes my stomach turn, and it hurts my heart. 

One thing I want to make very, very, very clear is I will not be gone forever. Well, technically I'm not "going" anywhere per say, I'm just not putting out any books for a while. I'm still going to do my best to tell this block to go fuck itself. I'm still trying every single day to write. Even if it's only one word, one sentence, or hell one paragraph, I'm still trying to push through. 

The last reason for my break is because come May of 2018 I will be moving. Many may know this, but if not then this will be new news for you. My husband is in the military, which means come May next year, we'll be getting ready to move. Now I have no clue where we're going yet and we won't know until around January. But I thought it would be a good idea to not be so stressed out with a book releasing or deadlines while we're getting all packed up and ready to go. As soon as I know where our next destination is, I promise to update y'all. 

And I'm sure you've figured this out by now, but I do not handle stress well. Like at all. I've always had a really hard time dealing and handling my stress. I just wanted to be honest with y'all and explain a bit as to why you won't be seeing anything new from me for a while. 

I will promise you this, I will be back to my regular publishing schedule soon. 

I will not let this block takeover something I love so very much. 

I will not let my financial funk get in the way either. 

So please hang in here with me. Please understand that most of this shit is out of my control, which in itself is stressful. But I'll still be around. I'm still going to do takeovers, events, and post like I normally do. So please don't think I'm just going to disappear. 

I won't disappear because I have way too much left to write. 

That's all I have for y'all.
Until next time...